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disappointed Yes that is right.... I am at work. All of my friends are at Warped Tour, where I would love to be, but instead I am sitting at a desk getting yelled at because apparently I cant do anything right. Add to that my mistakes were made the first week we were open when I really didnt know anything, so it wasnt entirely my fault. Oh yeah, and I spent the first 15 minutes here getting hit on by a 50 year old guy who apprently thinks I am hot or something.
Needless to say that joyous attitude that I had when I got here has been shattered. I mean when I pulled in i was genuinely the happiest I have been in days. Life was looking up. I was coming to work to see "friends" and making money. I was realizing that my life really isnt that bad even though I have no direction. I was genuinely enjoying the day for what it is, another day that I woke up breathing. I mean I was happy. Then this. I wouldnt say that I am unhappy or pissed, although I think that the way certain things were handled was uncalled for, I am just not in the mood I was in and that sucks.
Other then that, I guess life has been ok. My phone is broke again, this time it is actually cracked, but outside of randomly turning off it seems to be ok. I will prolly have to replace it once the hinge completely breaks though. I have been thinking about alot of stuff lately. Not really bad stuff. Well someone I sort of know is getting a divorce and it is the first time i guess that I have really seen it up close and how absolutely horrible it is. I mean everyone ends up hurt. I guess I jsut never wanted to face that marriages could end like that. I want mine to be like a fairy tale, but the fact of the matter is that life isnt a fairy tale. I am realizing that. To be honest I have had relationships end pretty badly, and not the way I wanted, but those werent a marriage. I wanted to think that marriage was different. I guess I jsut had my bubble bursted, in addition to seeing anohter prime example that you have to be careful who you pick.
Everything else is good I suppose. I am in general really happy with where my life is and the people in it. As always there are people I wish I were closer to and those that I could really care less if they called, but that is life. I cant wait for everyone to get back. I dont particularly want to get back to class, but that is a whole other story.
Sorry this turned out so long... but when you got nothing better to do it is easy to start rambling....
August 3 2005, 22:27:06 UTC 6 years ago
Second of all... do what my brother tells me, "Fuck em all!" Not literally of course, just dont let what others do to you, get to you so much.
Third of all... Come to Tampa, live with me, lets play golf everyday and live happily ever after! Hows that for your fairy tail! Muahz kiddo! Keep your head up and "Fuck em all!"
August 4 2005, 02:32:13 UTC 6 years ago
Stop breaking your phone.
I'm sorry if anything I said in my post hurt you in any way. Like I said, it's not all aimed at you and I'm not sure what is and what isn't (because i kind of wrote it and forgot about it, just to get the emotions out).
And, no matter what anyone else says, nobody's life ever has a direction. Life isn't algebraic; it's abstract.
August 4 2005, 15:25:34 UTC 6 years ago
Are you on drugs? Do you really stand by that comment? So what are we? litlte ants running around the earth? We might as well call ourselfs chickens, cut our heads off, and run around (like a chicken with its head cut off).
Lay off the philosophy and and come into the real world where the rest of us live please.
August 4 2005, 15:54:39 UTC 6 years ago
August 4 2005, 16:16:08 UTC 6 years ago
Yes, I suppose the ants was a bad choice, but I like the chicked part myself! haha
August 4 2005, 16:20:51 UTC 6 years ago
Keep believing that your life does actually have a direction. I can offer proof that it doesn't.
August 4 2005, 16:58:31 UTC 6 years ago
August 4 2005, 16:59:25 UTC 6 years ago
August 4 2005, 17:22:02 UTC 6 years ago
The way you are viewing everything is that the only factor in your life is you. But there are many additional factors: your family, friends, neighbors, people you've never met, the weather, the economy, etc.
So, here's a little example showing that there is no such thing as having a "direction" in life.
You are in a steady relationship, with a good job and pretty good job security. You plan to ask the girl to marry you in the next few months and have an outlook for a 2-story house in the next few years. All is good for you. You have a "direction in life". But now other factors come into play. The president makes some brilliant economic reform that sends the country into a depression. Your job security goes flying out the window, and as not to lose too much money on their initial investment, the board of the company you work for decides to sell the company to a much larger group. This group decides that there is a need for reform within their company so that they can put up a better profit margin while the economy declines. This costs you your job. Suddenly, you are left with one a steady relationship, and not enough money to get engaged or married to this girl. All of your "direction" is gone.
Stuff like this happens daily. No matter what you think about the "direction" your life is in, one single event can throw the entire thing away. Nothing is certain in life, except for death (and taxes, they say). So, I guess in a way, we are all headed towards death, but that's an awfully cynical and depressing way to view one's life.
August 4 2005, 19:01:07 UTC 6 years ago
That scenerio you just gave, its called protection. I highly recommend that you look into it. If you cared about your family, you would make sure that they are protected no matter what the circumstances(sp).
I just realized that I dont know how to spell. Ohh well... look on the bright side, there is always Microsoft Word! I love that Bill Gates guy! (your telling me that he doesnt have his ass covered? ya right!)
Go have a beer and cheer up. If you spend the rest of your life looking straight ahead to death, your right, you will be one depressed man. Go get laid or something... I would be good for you psyche.
August 4 2005, 19:32:12 UTC 6 years ago
"Protection" doesn't prevent things from changing your direction.
I would never drink to feel better. It's only a cover for deeper depression problems and a solution to nothing.
Not once did I say that my goal in life is death.
Bill Gates' hasn't written shit for Microsoft since Microsoft 3.1 was released (pre Word), and his ass is only covered because he is a multi-billionaire.
August 4 2005, 21:20:04 UTC 6 years ago
August 4 2005, 21:57:31 UTC 6 years ago
As I recall, the only one who has thrown around names and proven that others can not have differing opinions is you.
August 4 2005, 22:12:42 UTC 6 years ago
Im done with you.
BTW, Hi Cassy! Miss you! Muahz! Call me tonight to let me know if everything is OK.
August 4 2005, 22:16:15 UTC 6 years ago
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August 5 2005, 00:01:07 UTC 6 years ago
:)
August 5 2005, 00:42:08 UTC 6 years ago
BTW, I am subborn and always have the last word... I could have only wised that you would have stopped after I said I was done...
August 5 2005, 00:54:39 UTC 6 years ago
Hope you're having fun :) Glad the insults in my direction can help you feel better about yourself :)
August 5 2005, 01:32:33 UTC 6 years ago
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August 5 2005, 02:21:06 UTC 6 years ago
Good night. If you decide to continue this, I guess I'll talk to you some more tomorrow.